“I was insecure and could only focus on that stupid number on the scale.”
Have you ever found yourself in a place where you feel anxious and stressed about food? You feel sluggish or have digestive issues? And those late night cravings are just impossible to resist?
Perhaps you beat yourself up whenever you indulge? Or when you gain a few pounds?
And do you diet constantly?
Now I want to ask you, would you like to learn how to nourish and love your body?
Do you love the idea of living a vibrant, healthy, energetic and balanced life – with no diets and no guilt?
You’re in the right place. If you want to stop obsessing over food, and never want to go back to that vicious cycle of dieting, I can help.
Why? Because I’ve been there. When I talk about dieting, negative self-talk, bingeing and emotional eating, it’s all from personal experience. If you know this story all too well, then we’ve got a lot in common.
Growing up I struggled with my weight. I tried all the fad diets and trends in food philosophies. I tried them for a time and would end up tired of the dogma’s and feeling worse afterward and not be gaining long-term results.
At age 12, I discovered diets. And in the years to follow, I was a chronic fad dieter who was obsessed with weight and the way I look – to the point where I was on the verge of a serious eating disorder. This way of thinking was my ‘normal’, and I couldn’t help myself.
During that time, I was insecure and could only focus on that stupid number on the scale. I was stuck in this yo-yo effect what was the result of constant dieting. Since I could never keep up a certain diet or ‘ideal’ weight – which I now know doesn’t exist – I was caught in a toxic cycle. Food took over my life in an unhealthy way, and I punished myself by bingeing and then restricting myself with food by going back to diets. Can you see this toxic cycle?
I thought that being thin and looking a certain way would make me more lovable, and would make me accept myself more. Looking back, it had the opposite effect: it didn’t make me feel any more loved by others, and I definitely didn’t love myself more. I was using food to reward and punish myself. I compared myself to others who looked better and were more successful in life. (I thought looking a certain way would grant me more success) I instill all that negative self-talk into my body, mind and self-worth and this became my biggest burden.
Even though my life looked perfect on the outside, I couldn’t appreciate it because I was consumed by being perfect all the time and in all areas of my life.
Back in 2012, I felt totally disconnected from my body when I gained 25 kg with my first pregnancy and after giving birth to Rocco, my firstborn, I couldn’t get the weight off. I was disappointed in my body and felt that it let me down. To top it off, breastfeeding didn’t go as planned and I end up feeling a total failure as a mother and a woman.
Then, when I was pregnant with my second child in 2014, something shifted. I started to read about nutrition and how to live a healthy lifestyle because I wasn’t planning on gaining 25 kg again. After giving birth to my second child I joined my husband’s tech startup and I saw how challenging it was to eat right, exercise regularly and live a balanced life in this fast-paced, big city, demanding 24/7 environment. I knew I had to be the change and continued my healthy lifestyle in our company despite the fact I was the only one living this way.
Fast forward to now, and I’m a completely different person. We moved to Bali, Indonesia, found our heart and home on the island and its people and love the laidback culture and mindful environment. I’ve taken control of my life, my eating habits, and my thoughts. I’ve got my training at The Institute for Integrative Nutrition (IIN) and work as a Health Coach giving workshops and doing 1:1 coaching with clients around the world. Everything I’m learning at IIN has blown me away and I’m forever grateful for this amazing healing journey. Today I’m eating real food and changed my mindset on health and living a balanced life. Slowly, I’m healing my relationship with my body and food. I’m free from fad diets, obsessing over the scale, counting calories and finally found balance. I found out how eating well and feeling amazing were very much connected. I’ve been on diets for nearly two decades and today I can proudly say that I’m set free, by the grace of God.
Today, I have a gentle approach to nutrition, health, and wellbeing. I’m an intuitive eater that listens to my body and give it what it needs. I enjoy cooking, going to organic markets, having balanced delicious meals, working out, practicing yoga, prayer time and a regular self-love routine. Above all, I’m gentle and kind to myself. It took some time, but eventually, I managed to climb out of the negative spiral I was in and create a life that I actually wanted.
What does this mean today? I choose love, grace and gratitude over fear. And I’ll tell you something — I ain’t ever going back!
Now, I’m here to help you do the same.
I’ve learned a lot along the way. And I’m still learning every day. And I love sharing all of it here with you, in my health coaching programs, blog posts and upcoming book.
My mission is to help you create a healthy, vibrant, fulfilling life — one that you’re actually excited to get out of bed in the morning for, and that genuinely makes you feel like the stunning, confident person you are.
With all my love,